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to the Edge April 2006

      On the Other Side of Amends May 2011

      Tax Returns September 2008

      Hot Wine March 2013

      If It Ain’t Nailed Down March 2013

      Bank Notes September 1999

       CHAPTER EIGHT

       Finally Reaching Out to Those We So Often Kept at Bay

      Our friends and coworkers, who were always close at hand, easy targets for our addictive behavior, are now recipients of our amends

      A Reminder at the Reunion August 2011

      Letter to Hong Kong March 2013

      Digging Out March 2013

      Open and Honest February 1980

      Ruff Love March 2015

      I’m Right and You’re Wrong … OK? November 1996

      An Honest Amend May 1997

      A Letter from an Old Friend July 2011

       Twelve Steps

       Twelve Traditions

       About AA and AA Grapevine

      Welcome

      “We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others.”

      — Alcoholics Anonymous

      Making Amends features 55 candid, firsthand stories from Grapevine magazine of AA members’ experiences with Step Nine of the AA program. The book is divided into eight main chapters, including sections on Step Eight, parents, children, family members, exes, special cases, financial, and finally, friends and coworkers.

      Step Nine is a challenging, life-changing practice that requires preparation, so the book begins with a chapter of Step Eight experiences. In “Ready to Sweep,” the book’s first story, the writer leaves no doubt why these Steps are necessary. “When I was an active alcoholic, I caused physical, mental and spiritual damage to people,” writes member Gary T. In our understandable hesitance to dive into these most grownup of Steps, we sometimes express the idea that our fellows are tired of hearing our apologies, which is where our sponsors point out that when we back our car into a fence, we don’t turn to it and say, “I’m sorry,” we take out our hammer and nails. We make a mend. In “Learning How to Forgive,” D.W.R. realizes what had frozen his emotions, even in making amends: “I wasn’t forgiving them for not forgiving me.”

      Parents often top the list of those harmed by our addiction, and in Chapter 2’s story “Making Amends,” C.M.’s mother welcomes his by assuring him that, “You do make amends to me each time you reach out to a newcomer.” In Chapter 3, we see that our vulnerable children are too often the victims of our drinking as well. In “The Luckiest Mom,” Pat T. had given her daughter up for adoption, and when it occurs to her to make her amends, she is miraculously able to do so in person.

      The ravages of our disease ripple clearly through our families, and in Keith W.’s article “A Quiet Hatred,” in Chapter 4, his amends took the form of a racial reconciliation that seemed impossible. In Chapter 5, our exes, once our loves, are so often bound to us by negatives, thanks to our alcoholic behavior. In “Scene of the Crime,” Kit K. found enough peace in the quiet of a volcano crater to make a face-to-face amends to her once violent ex, remembering her sponsor saying, “Courage is fear that has said its prayers.”

      Garden variety fears fade in comparison to how we feel when the amends we must make are the survivors of those who did not survive our alcoholism. In the Chapter 6 story “The Amends I Most Dreaded to Make,” member D.S. reaches out to the beloved sister of the pedestrian he ran down who eventually died from her injuries, and is taken in as “a dear, real brother.” In Chapter 7, we’re reminded that money doesn’t mix with alcoholism, and the financial collision that often occurs leaves scars deeper than debts. In “Tax Returns,” an anonymous author writes that the bond between the amends-maker and the tax collector was “the silent work of a Higher Power.”

      And in the book’s final chapter, we see that friends and coworkers, some of whom have been our drinking buddies, have invariably been in the vicinity as we drank, close enough to be harmed. Clearing our side of the street with them wins us back our self-esteem as well. As B.F. writes about her relationship with a dear friend in “Open and Honest,” “I had to be good to myself and stop dragging the past with me whenever I encountered Lynne.”

      As the powerful stories in this book illustrate, we can count on Step Nine to mark, as our co-founder Bill W. wrote, “the beginning of the end of isolation from our fellows and from God.”

      CHAPTER ONE

      Step Eight: We Don’t Rush Into Amends

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      The effects of Step Nine on our lives and others’ will last a long time—even a lifetime—so paving our way via Step Eight is vital

      “Driven by a hundred forms of fear,” says the Big Book, “self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity, we step on the toes of our fellows and they retaliate.” With Steps Eight and Nine, we heal those relationships, as well as our primary relationship with ourselves. It’s only after working Step Nine that the inspiring AA Promises can be expected.

      No matter how eager we are to clear our side of the street with everyone, we are advised to prepare well first. And we do that through working the other seven Steps. In the story “The Mending Process,” later on in the book, Corinne H. describes the chaos she created as she rushed headlong into Step Nine, “without benefit of sponsor or sanity.”

      In

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