Skip the Guilt Trap: Simple steps to help you move on with your life. Gael Lindenfield

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      • It can produce emotional and behavioural symptoms that are attributed to other causes.

      • The habit of disguising guilt (real or imagined) can often be traced back to childhood.

      • The process of outing this kind of guilt needs to be done skilfully and sensitively. A therapeutic professional often does this. Others who know and care for the person can also achieve it.

      Childhood guilt

      This is a subject that I could easily write a whole book about, and so could most psychotherapists. Childhood guilt is one type that surfaces so frequently. It is one of the main contributing causes of chronic low self-esteem and a host of other common mental-health problems.

      As is now common knowledge, our default emotional auto-responses are largely ‘wired in’ during our childhood years. This makes them much more difficult to control. This is especially so if we experienced guilt repeatedly or it arose as a result of a traumatic experience. Even when, as adults, we can see that many of these responses are not rational and are indeed harmful to us, they still have stubborn sticking power.

      Additionally, parents, or other significant adults who had power and influence over us when we were children, induce much of this guilt. Here are a few brief examples of these kinds of ‘messages’ that I have come across through words, attitudes or consequences:

      

You’re supposed to be a bright boy; the trouble is that you’re just lazy. That’s why you failed … I feel so ashamed of you when I hear this from teachers.

      

You’ll drive me to an early grave with all that noise. I’m shattered. [From a mother who died of breast cancer in her thirties.]

      

Now look what you’ve made me do. [From a father who had just turned over a table in anger and cut his hand picking up a broken glass.]

      

Having to do this hurts me more than it hurts you, but you deserve it. [When being given an overly severe punishment.]

      

She’s a bully and a liar … I suppose every family has a black sheep. She’s my cross. [Overheard telephone conversation.]

      

I told you to watch them … now look at what has happened. Your brother is in A&E. [Told to an eldest child when she was nine years old.]

      

You’re going to end up just like your father – you just can’t be bothered and think only of yourself. [Father abandoned the family and has been on benefits most of his life.]

      

I told you that you looked like a slut in that dress …What do you expect when you dress like that? [After a 14-year-old had been through an upsetting sexual advance.]

      And, of course, damage can also be done indirectly through nobody’s fault. I met someone in her eighties recently who, when she found out what I was writing about, said she still feels guilty about her own birth. She was premature and her mother was unable to have any more children afterwards.

      Here are some other examples I have known where people feel guilty about being who they were born to be:

      

Being born blind, and knowing that his disability has restricted his parents’ and siblings’ lives.

      

Being less intelligent than average and needing private tutoring before all her exams.

      

Being more intelligent than her brothers and sisters and getting a scholarship, which enabled her to go to university and have a good career.

      

Being a promising sports person whose training and matches have required sacrifices from all his family.

      

Being born illegitimate and “… bringing shame on the family and ruining my mother’s life’ (shared by a very elderly man).

      And then, of course, there are the guilty secrets that some children felt they had to keep (rightly or wrongly), such as:

      

stealing from Mum’s purse and Dad’s wallet;

      

hating a brother the parents favoured and praying he would die;

      

lying repeatedly to cover up hurting a younger sister;

      

blaming a school friend for doing something you know he didn’t do;

      

masturbation and other sexual explorations;

      

feeling attracted to the same sex;

      

missing Dad and secretly meeting him after the divorce;

      

going to the synagogue even though they no longer believed;

      

lying repeatedly about where they had spent the night;

      

being sexually abused by an uncle.

      Of course, many people have these experiences and grow up to be able to talk about them or laugh them off. Others unfortunately cannot do this. When they are ‘confessed’ or discussed, the emotion of guilt visibly floods back into their system. They typically bow their heads or cover their faces with their hands. Unsurprisingly, they commonly feel shameful guilt, which we will be looking at later.

      Having guilt from childhood still live within us in adulthood renders us more vulnerable to feeling guilt in the present day. We shall look at ways of dealing with childhood guilt in Chapter 7.

      Summary: Childhood guilt

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