but?
Larisa spoke.
– Terransha!
The hope is quiet told.
– Means you consider me terranshy? "It is a pity that you so think of me. – she spoke. – I am not a terransha, I am only a mother".
Larisa told.
– Yes, you mother, but made you happy the son?
This question was rhetorical, but also in too time is not present. Tell whether Roman could be happy? He already answered this question.
The hope steamed.
– Happy? And unless happiness not in money? Everything can be bought for money.
– And happiness?
The hope grinned.
– Same happiness.
– But whether Roman was happy?
The hope told.
– I all that did was for the benefit of family.
Here Larisa grinned. She knew that it is only an excuse self-justification of the person who has nothing to tell. She waved away.
– It only words, you never nothing did for family. All of you do only for yourself! Nobody is necessary to you, only you are. All of you do for yourself for anybody Bol.
Having heard these reproaches in the address, Nadezhda did not find words to state her all that she thinks of it. She wanted to state everything in a face, but at her as if language was gone from a mouth, and the mouth as if stuck together. Therefore it seemed that she only lowed, without having uttered a uniform sound.
Larisa feeling that she is right, she shamed Nadezhda.
– What? There is nothing to tell you? What became silent? Language withered? You see, I am right!
The hope could not answer, it having kind of taken offense at itself that she could not object to it, sniffed, and having turned away from Larisa, sat down on a sofa, and having crossed hands on a breast, having begun to cry, told.
– I am not a tyrant, I wanted that to my son it was good, and all the rest is not important. – then she added. – All that did was for the benefit of family. – She heaved a deep sigh. – Not to you to judge me, to you. – on these words she became silent. She has nothing more what to tell. It was … What was? However, each woman knows this state in which the Woman has nothing to parry the opponent, and she broken and humiliated remains extreme. Extreme in eyes only the debater, but also in the opinion of the native person.
Roman and Larisa exchanged glances. Larisa did not expect that everything so will be? That Nadezhda will return from the next world, and will only return, and it will appear here, in this apartment, in this room. Will prove as usual the case.
But whether all this is real? All that happens to them? As Nadezhda could survive, at the same time she was buried. How in general it is possible? The way of the dead man to lift from a grave and to recover it is not created yet? All this from area of a fantasy? However, if who read A. Belyaeva. "The HEAD of PROFESSOR DOUEL", it is possible to assume that perhaps in the future it will be possible? To recover the person. But we will return to reality. In the following chapter I will tell you about it. Let's begin with when Larisa and Nadezhda briskly talked then paralyzed Nadezhda. So, we will begin. But before we will look what is done by Roman. He listened to Nadezhda and did not understand what in general occurs? Why it is possible. For it all this was as a dream. A dream in which its nightmare was shown. Subconscious nightmare his subconsciousness. He sat down on a sofa, embraced mother, and having clung to her, told.
– I understand you. – He looked at Larisa and added. – Larisa understands you too, but understand also you us, we should live separately. You understand that it is impossible, to live together.
– The hope tenderly looked at the son and told.
– Of course I understand you and therefore I leave. Live as you know. – then she reminded. – But you remember, you are married. Not to a gozha to lead a double life. – then she grinned, and having looked at Larisa, added. – You want happiness, but whether will bring you happiness these the relation? – She looked at the watch. Midday. She told. – It is time for me, I have to go.
So, on it Nadezhda having said goodbye to Roman and Larisa, left. It went to a door, and having left the apartment closed behind itself a door. Having left one sitting on a sofa and little the understanding two people. Larisa and Roman.
At this moment Roman jumped from a sofa, and ran to a door. He opened a door and having jumped out in a corridor shouted one word. – MOTHER. – but it was not any more. It disappeared also mysteriously as well as appeared.
So, now we learn how Nadezhda was hospitalized and who is guilty of it? So, we will begin.
Chapter-4
Tragic meeting
So, we will begin with the moment when Larisa came home to Roman. He called by it the address once, invited to come, but then Larisa refused to pay to it a visit, she hurried on the last electric train. Well, can do it was all to the best? It then did not meet Nadezhda. Nobody knows, than then this meeting of two absolutely different women would end? However, this meeting took place. As Roman presented it to the wife Vera, it of course was not. And could not be. Larisa was such silly woman so to come to absolutely unfamiliar family and to tell., no, it is simple to demand that Roman married it. No. Of course, it was not. And what really happened there? What occurred it that Nadezhda got a heart attack and the paralysis which followed it? Now we learn it. So …
There was a clear day. People, in which city of Moscow their preogromny quantity that even Moscow went out of MKAD, there was along the street a woman. It was beautiful. However, she was always a beauty, but today it looked best of all. It had an excellent mood! Yes anyhow? The gynecologist had it today, and that told it a joyful message. She is pregnant. Term, about three weeks. Yes, this joyful news to any woman, the truth if this child desired, but not a fruit of a single petty intrigue which you will also not remember more. Yes, this woman was happy. She was happy this pregnancy! All the life she wanted to have children. But it was impossible. Single sex contradicted its all female nature. She considered that the child had to is conceived in love. It is not casual at all. She considered that all nature human existence, its kernel, has to be only in sincere and serene love. Love first of all to that person who will always be near the loving person. Never will bring it, will never betray, will never tell a bad word. It will always be near it. Always, to the most death. Then, he has to love society in which he lives. Let it be not ideal, but it is society in which society all of us live.
Who was this woman? She was called Larisa. recently it was with the person loving it, and the result did not keep itself waiting long. Here it is a fruit of her pure and serene love. Her future child who is in her belly. Now, going along the new Arbat, she could not think of anything, only of pregnancy. It went to theatrical school, to common people the received name PIKE. The Boris Shchukin Theatre Institute how many left it remarkable actors, now many of them drop. Vanish in the native school, in the PIKE.
But let it pass, with school. Now in it there are occupations. Let's look what is done now by Larisa?
She approached the lane where to be the Pike, and having turned into the yard, saw
