The Scroll of Anatiya. Zoë Klein
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as into green pastures,
15while vines thick with roses entwine round their legs,
while their footprints fill with spring poppies
and lilies drop out of the sky.
16I know this place is called Milashuri,
and when we go there and grasp hands and find repose,
the spirit will move the cherub’s wings
and lift the lovers over many ladders of cloud
upon the chariots of Amminadab.
17Dear Lord, in Your wisdom
You understand this girl,
whose life is but a forgotten dream,
whose heart is a shattered urn.
18Gather these pieces, merciful Lord!
Fit them into a mosaic on the Temple floor,
and let the high priests tread on my desire.
19I am but dust, my Lord.
Sweep me up!
Sweep me in Your kindness
into Divine Evermore!
20Jeremiah is being scolded on behalf of all people. God’s words are fire-filled hailstones. 21God gave His only daughter to Israel as a bride, and she has returned to Him bruised and mistreated. 22Downcast and dejected, she frets about Heaven, twisting her porcelain hands. 23“Don’t avenge Yourself upon him, O Father, please! He is a good husband, with a pure love in his heart, I swear unto You! 24He is just a bit young! A little stubborn, a little human, dear Father! Don’t scatter him, don’t slay him. 25You can’t expect him to be just like You!” 26But God looks upon her and weeps. He says, “Once you had no creases on your brow, and your eyes were clear as a river.” 27He lifts up His sword to chase Israel. Torah falls to her knees and clutches His robe.
28She cries:
“It is only because I have become human in his arms!”
29She seizes the corner of His robe and it tears.
30He turns to her in anger and says:
“I have this day torn your marriage with Israel.
Summon the dirge-singers! 31Let them wail for you.
From now on the sons of men shall not
take wives from among divine beings.
32My breath will not dwell in them forever.”
Her tears wash over the mountain of the north.
33The sound of her wailing
is heard from Heaven.
34She clutches the golden ring
which Moses himself handed her
when she appeared to him
in blazing beauty.
35God is so jealous,
so livid when He looks at the hearts of men
that He forgets the redemptive love
found in the hearts of women!
And so I cry out, “I love!
“I love!
“I love!”
36My ears receive the teachings of Your mouth,
and yet, death creeps over my windowsill,
consuming the feathery hopes of young virgins
and of the frightened mothers with babes in their bellies and arms,
only because they stand innocently in Your barreling way
to cut off all the men from the squares.
37To punish You for tearing her marriage,
to punish You for pursuing her groom,
to punish You for the loves You left
piled like sheaves behind the reaper,
38Your daughter erases the names of the women from her scroll,
Your careful latticework of female legend she blots out, saying:
39“If You will not see us in Your wild stampede,
than I will not have You write us!”
40God is in search of man
and man is in search of God,
and woman is irreconcilably lost
~wrote Anatiya.
41You take note of the circumcised of Israel ~wrote Anatiya~ 42You count them with half shekels. When do you count me? 43Am I the same as a forlorn girl of fourteen from Egypt or Edom, Ammon or Moab? 44Who am I in this great House of Israel? I will tell You who I am. 45I am the Temple treasure. I am the whisper of the secret name in the Holy of Holies. 46I am the quickened pulse. I am the blood that purifies the altar. 47I am just as You are, my God and my Redeemer, I am that I am. I will be what I will be.
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Hear the words that I say to you, O mournful Jeremiah!
2Do not be dismayed by the portents in the sky, my love,
do not beat yourself over the profanity of others.
3You weary me with your sorrow,
weary me to death, my love,
every teardrop is a nail,
every sob is a hammer
that secures my grave.
Heaven forbid!
4You totter there like a scarecrow in a cucumber patch,
and the crows are getting wise to your impotence.
5Let them gorge themselves on the shallow minds,
and you walk away with me.
6I will kiss you until you are raw
and red and alive,