Little Girl Lost: Volume 1 of the Little Girl Lost Trilogy. Cindy Hanna
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Everyone’s staring at me, wondering what horrible crime I committed to be riding in the back of a police car.
She slides further down in her seat. Officer O’Reily turns the unit into the station’s lot. They pass down a two-lane drive, past the department’s gas pumps, make a right turn and pull up in front of the steel door that leads into the booking area. Sally is directed from the car to the door—a frightful steel door.
Sally is questioned, once inside the booking area, and has the handcuffs removed. Her belongings, all of them, are taken from her and accounted for. Her possessions are spread out on a steel countertop in front of an iron holding cell, and she is asked to account for each. Having her things seized and sorted through leaves her feeling degraded. To her left is a pay phone on the wall. She desperately wants to make a call—to connect with the outside world.
A female officer leads Sally down a hallway and into a room around the corner, which houses a jail cell. Sally assumes that it will soon become her new home. The policewoman escorts her to the center of the room and says, “Take all of your clothes off.”
Sally does as she is told.
“Bend over and spread your cheeks.”
Sally obeys, allowing the officer to confirm that she has no drugs, lethal weapons or any other foreign objects inside of her.
This is so demoralizing.
She is told to remain there, nude, while the officer goes to question whether or not she can put her bra back on. Before leaving, the officer sees Sally’s puzzled expression and answers her unasked question. “Your bra has a steel underwire. Normally we don’t allow prisoners to enter a cell with any metal objects in their possession. I’m not sure about the bra. I’ll have to ask.”
While she is gone, Sally remains frozen.
Don’t move a muscle. Don’t break any other laws.
Sally stands, as rigid as a tree, fearing to even breathe. The policewoman returns. “It’s okay for you to put your bra back on. Get dressed.”
Once clothed, Sally is escorted out of the room, back up the hallway, to the steel counter where her things had been laid out earlier. Officer O’Reily, the sheriff who had arrested her, stands waiting to receive her. He slides a piece of paper towards her. “Please read this document listing your possessions and then sign it.”
Sally complies and is guided to a row of wooden chairs lining a wall. A single handcuff hangs to the left of each seat with one end bolted to the wall.
“Sit down,” Officer O’Reily says, pointing to one of the chairs.
Sally does and he leans across her to grab one of the handcuffs, clamping the bracelet to her left wrist, before walking away. Chained like a dog with a collar that is too tight, Sally cannot escape. She looks through an open door into a small room across the hallway where two custodians are on break.
They’re staring at me.
The men turn their backs towards her.
They’re talking about me. I wanna run and hide.
She sits there until Officer O’Reily returns and removes the handcuff from her wrist. He leads her to a table attached to the wall. There, he holds the fingers of her right hand over a rotating inked pad and has her make several fingerprints on her new criminal record. Sally washes her hand, but is unable to get all the ink off her blackened fingers. She looks at them.
I wonder if this will ever come off.
She is re-handcuffed to the wall where she waits until another officer comes and fetches her. This policeman leads her back down the hallway to the stripping room. They round the corner and stand before the formidable cell door. “Enter,” he says.
Reluctantly, Sally walks into the cell. Once inside, she hears the awful slam of the heavy door, followed by his words. “You’re doing time now,” he says before walking away.
She stands just inside the cell door and observes her new housing layout. There are three beds: two on one wall, a third located on another. There are a steel sink, drinking fountain and toilet in the opposite corner.
She takes her place on one of the bunks and huddles in its farthest corner. She begins to shudder, shake, sing, cry and think. Desperate for something to do, she commences counting the number of bars on the cell door—ninety-one in all. She hears another girl enter the stripping room. The same female officer tells her to disrobe.
The girl begs the policewoman, “Please, just one light. That’s all I want—just one smoke.”
God, please don’t have them put her in my cell. I’ve heard stories of what happens in jail.
The strip-search is completed, and the other girl leaves, her request for a smoke having been denied. Alone, Sally resumes thinking. Isolation creeps in. She hates to be alone.
How long have I been here? I can’t keep track of time.
She gives up. Looking for something to occupy her mind, she finds herself down on her hands and knees reading the messages that have been carved into the cell’s floor. Disturbing questions pass through Sally’s mind.
How did the previous cellmates carve sayings into the concrete floor?
Wasn’t I told that no metal objects were allowed? These carvings were made with something sharp, but what?
A detective comes to talk with her after what seems like years. The lighting is poor and there is an iron mesh welded to the cell’s bars, making it difficult for Sally to clearly distinguish what he looks like.
She longs to see the outline of a human face.
I’m so desperate to talk to someone—anyone—that even talking to this officer feels good. It makes me feel less alone.
The detective addresses her. “I’ve spoken with your mother and think it would be a good idea for you to start seeing a counselor on a regular basis. The charges against you will be dropped, as long as you agree to apologize, in person, to the store manager. Do you agree?”
“Yes.”
“Good. Your mother is waiting outside for you. Someone will come and get you when we’re ready to let you go.” Having said his piece, he gets up and leaves.
After a time, an officer comes to get Sally. She is escorted out of her cell, hopefully never to return, through the stripping room and back to the steel counter where her belongings are returned to her in a manila envelope. The officer firmly places his massive hand beneath Sally’s elbow as he directs her through the door and out to the waiting area. Seeing her mother’s face, Sally feels as though she has been released from one prison to another.
Mother and daughter leave and drive in silence to the Ralph’s store so Sally can apologize to the manager before heading home. Once en route, her mother asks, “Why did you do it? What were you thinking?”